Achyness UGH!!!!!!

i am soooo achy from the transformation last night. I am also really tired and the human that i love hasnt called me today about whether or not we can hang today or not. right now i am just writing this blog waiting for his call. I keep wanting to sleep more but i cant other whys i might miss his call and then we wouldnt be able to hang out so yeah that would suck i am thinking of calling him if he doesnt call soon. i went to a party at his house the night before halloween and then he came to my party on halloween. it was a lot of fun. at his party a couple of his other friends were there and we all sat around a camp fire and listened to some music. it was great on of his friends girl friends and i sang to some of the phantom of the opera songs fromk the movie cause we r weird like that and we all love that musical. it was just great. then me and him got soaked with the rest of my guests when we went out trick or treating on halloween. and then he took me to see rocky horror picture show. everyone was throwing everything it was a lot of fun i actually said some of the things u say when certain characters say their name or when they come on or when they do certain things it was a lot of fun. well gtg ttfn ta ta for now.

FULL MOON!!!!!!!!

The full moon is rising and soon it will be time to dance in her glory and run through the woods in wolf form with my pack and to watch the one i love from a far it will be an excellent night my adrenaline is already much higher than a normal persons and my heart rate is increasing very rapidly i can feel the change starting my muscles r growing and my sight is becoming more enhanced i can feel the beast inside yearning to be free. My joints are starting to ache as they sense the change is coming they know that tonight they will change form and be changed into a beautiful creature once more. I can not wait for the change to occur i am looking forward to it more than any other time . So hold your breath and count to three and make say a prayer that a werewolf wont come knocking at your door. HOWL!!!!!!!!!

A Human to Love! <3

sorry i havent written in awhile i have had a hard couple of months. but none of it seems to matter anymore. i have been acquaintances with this human for quite some time and only at the home coming dance for my high school last week did i really start talking to him after and hour of talking we found out that we had a lot more incommon than either of us do with our other friends we grew close really fast and just in one day we were in love . I asked him to go with me to this teen club we have in my town and he said he would love to, so we went and well one of my gay friends found out for the first time that what ever u do to my neck i moan and so he kept torturing all night by biting and squeezing my neck. Then he told the guy that he should try it and at first he was like i dont want to hurt her and when i told him he wouldnt hurt me he did it and it felt soooooo good and after he stopped he rested his head on my shoulder and just stayed there until my gay friend interupted then he was freezing so i held onto him to help warm him up my gay friend has had a crush on him since he first met him and so he pulled me aside and asked if we could switch bodies if he ever found the technology to i jokingly said yes but i would never switch bodies when i had the guy of my dreams. then later that night we were holding eachother and our forheads were together and then he kissed me and we kissed for a few seconds and then he put his head on my shoulder and i put mine on his and we were just standing there enjoying the moment and then it was ruined by my gay friend ruining the moment and yet it didnt bother me all i knew was that i was the happiest girl on the earth because i had finally kissed the man of my dreams and he was in my arms. and all the world was gone.

New

well heres some new i just got a new boyfriend and he is totally aweasome he and i are so similar. He is not a werewolf but i think i can make it work if i could just get over the fact that not everyone is out to get me. I look at the moon and i see his face i howl my love song to him and i can see him smile back like he knows that it is me i run through the night smiling as though the world was mine and that i just had to reach out and take it. Right now things r just so great i just feel like dancing.

Looks

i wish i was prettier but i am not and it is hard to accept my self like this. I used to be really skinny with a skinny face and long brown hair. Now i am chubby with short orange hair. and i dont find my self pretty but i dont know how can i tell i am me and i just see my faults. Sometimes i am scared of what people will think of me but u know u cant make people see what u want them to see i wish i could but i cant. Isnt life depressing.

Darkness

listening to the things in my mind makes me feel alone. and yet i know i am not alone. Its a strange feeling. I feel empty inside and it makes me want to cry. Then people tell me dont cry little one embrace ur life and take yourself back to the light. And yet u dont want to. You like the darkness where everything is peacefull and u dont have to worry about what people think about u all u do is sit and think. I like it here i just want to stay here. but some day u will have to leave because more people will come so u go out into the light and there it is just not the same. so u try to recreat the darkness any way u can.

swim team

well yeah just got back from swim practice. wasnt very fun today had to come home early so yeah i will post again when there is more to post