Senior Year

everyone thinks i am so excited about this year when really i am just excited about the end of it i will finally be out of high school. finally free from hiding who i really am. free of everyone thinking i am a freak because i dress differently. every full moon i run and sing a lunar song my wolf comes fully out and i am free. when i am through with highschool i will feel even more freedom. i wont have to conceal my true self constantly, because i wont have to worry about the wrong people finding out and useing it against me at my school. i can hang out with who i want to hang out with i get to choose who comes and who doesnt i can choose classes that my friends are in and not have to worry about what popular kid might be snooping around mear us because they will all be far away leading their own pathetic lives. and i will be running through the woods free.

Moonlite Run

The Moon is high in the sky I am running through the forest I can't stop running otherwise it will get me. I keep running and running. I can't stop I have to keep running. My paws thud on the ground as I run. My breathing gets heavy. I pant my tongue hanging out of my mouth. It's getting closer. I have to face it or I will never stop running. I slide to a stop and spin around lifting up onto my hind legs and there it is. My past. It looks me dead in the face I stare right back and growl daring it to keep dragging me down. I see everything my first boy friend, my first big mistake, my great grandmothers funeral, the day i chose this path, the day I found out what I truly was, the day i went into the hospital, the day I found out my grandfather went into the hospital, the day i lost a great love, the day I realized i don't need to prove anything to anyone. I bowed my head and the last tear i would shed for my past slid down my muzzle and drop to the ground. Then I lifted my head and sang to the moon her lunar song. Then I looked ahead of me towards my future and I started walking.

A Love Forbidden

I know I haven't written in awhile but now I am finally writing again and this is whats been going on in my life. I have lost weight and I have died my hair a bunch of different colors and then now it is a dark brown. I have been through heartbreak but no heart fulfillment . I have been to wiccan rituals and have met people and I have fallen for someone again. But I don't think that he will fall for me like I fell for him. He is an artist like me and he likes similar things that I like,but I still don't think he will fall for me.I don't think anyone would fall for me. i am alone in this world and I am sad about that but there is nothing I can do about it either. I will lie awake and cry about sometimes but other times I will rejoice in it all I want is someone to love me forever and always. But I doubt I will ever find it. All I can do is hope and prey and keep believing.

I am Back

Well sorry i havent blogged in awhile i have been really busy so yeah. I hope you all had a good holiday mine was pretty much uneventful. But you want to know something I am officially with a guy he is a werewolf, and yes he is the werewolf from my pack that i was all over before. so yeah we are together now and he is only around until the 21 or the 24 hopefully the 24 so i can spend more time with him. I was going to go lazer tagging with him and my brother but my parents are being annoying so yeah. But yeah so i am with him and hopefully i can see him some other time this week which would be brilliant cause i already miss him. We went to see avatar last night it was aweasome i want to see him today though. well i am going to sign off. hopefully i will post more soon ttyl.